January Books

I made a New Years goal to read 38 books this year. I'm doing pretty good with reading a lot more this year. For the last few years, I have been in a reading rut. I haven't been reading much or I have been re-reading books. Last year, I kept a reading log at the end of my journal. I only recorded the new books that I had read. This year, I am doing both. There are certain books that I have re-read many times. These are my 6 January books:

The Choice-Nicholas Sparks

I have been trying to read all of his books. This was one of my favorites. I wanted to read it before the movie came out.

My Horizontal Life-Chelsea Handler

I love celebrities life stories! With that said, I wasn't very impressed with this one. I was speed reading through this one just to get to the end.

Three Wishes-Liane Moriarty

I love her books! This was the one that I have been wanting to read and it did not disappoint!

Murder is Misunderstood (The Bad Mother's Club #1)-Heather Horrocks

This was a free read through my Kindle. I really enjoyed it! I like cozy mysteries and this fit the bill.

Murder to Go (Food Truck Mysteries #1)-Chloe Kendrick

Not one of my favorites, but another cozy mystery. 

Every Last One-Anna Quindlen

I found this book during a snow day and forgot I had it. Actually, one of my best friends gave it to me to read and I had forgotten that I had it. This one was hard to put down after I got about halfway through it. It wasn't what I expected, but it was such a great story!

12 years ago...

...I woke up with tears in my eyes and a heaviness in my heart. My dreams of having a baby were gone because my baby was gone. To most people, it wasn't much, but to me it was my world. That day, I lost hope. Lost hope in my friends and family, in my marriage and in myself. I had both friends and family who turned away from me. I think because they didn't know what to say or do. My marriage started to fall apart because my husband had no idea how to handle me. I was not in the best state of mind. I lost hope in my body and blamed myself. No matter what everyone told me, I still blamed myself. I wanted to know everything about having a miscarriage. I read articles and blogs about miscarriages. I bought books to help me figure out what went wrong. Did I do something wrong? Was I too stressed? Did I not deserve to have a baby?